Doing it right?

Sometimes i get really troubled trying to figure out how to do Christianity "right". I know it sounds stupid, but the longer I am a Christian, the more there seems to be a method to living the Christian life. There's tons of books on how to live a balanced Christian life or have the right perspective on who God is. I am surrounded by many people of faith that i deeply respect and admire that share with me their take and strategy to the healthy Christian walk.

Should i pray for hours, should i evangelize today? Am I not caring enough about this or that? Why do i feel like I am just not enough for it? For what? For organized religion? i dunno, for church planting?

Jesus i love you and I will give you my heart and my life. God I just want to be where you are. Is it my fault that there is no revival? am i not praying enough? is it my fault that the world is the way it is? am i not doing enough? am i not doing it right? God I sure hope you are bigger than me. I hope this isn't up to me.

One time i was walking by De Neve and I saw a little boy on a skateboard being pushed by his dad. The boy had the happiest look on his face, he was riding the skateboard and doing none of the work but enjoying the ride. When I saw that, i immediately thought, that's how life with God is. I need to believe that God is pushing that skateboard behind me; that He is doing immeasurebly more with what little i can do than I can see.