I Knew It

I knew it. Today I admitted it. I am frustrated and disenchanted by IJM. Something that God used me to build a year ago, was suffering from a lack of commitment and a loss of vision. In the back of my mind, guilt haunted me. I knew I had not been faithful to it and I had not sown much and as a result failed to reap much. I knew that my passion was losing its luster and that it was at times what inspired others to fight for justice. I knew my heart was hard, my dreams were small and my faith was lost.

What was stirring in my heart, God brought to light today. I knew it. My discontent was growing. IJM was becoming too dependent on me. If i left today, it could not survive on its own. A friend woke me up today from my slumber. I was brought back the vision and purpose of why I felt so strong about creating the chapter.

1) IJM is for the church: It is to raise up a generation who will believe God for freedom and redemption in the nations. It for a church that will rise up and would believe God for more; that would seek his heart and be wrecked for the oppressed, hurting and dying.

2) IJM is for the nations: It is for those who are in bondage and suffering from the horrors of human trafficking. It for the ONE. It is for the freedom of the child in the brothel. It for the future of the family trapped in a brick kiln tricked into accumulating a debt that could never be paid off.

Do I believe God has a destiny and a purpose for IJM at UCLA? Do I believe that what God started here, he will be faithful to finish? Would I be willing to sow, care, and partner with God to see its full potential ? Would I remember God's crazy faithfulness to IJM in the past year? These are questions and convictions that I am faced with.